Withdrawal

I became the woman in the room with ugly yellow wallpaper. I went insane.

I spent months trapped inside skin that burned and, a bone deep itch, that I will never forget. All over my body, head to toe. Day and night. Never sleeping, shivering, clawing, losing my fucking mind. I spent hours in the bathtub to get relief, to sleep.

My skin fell off–what seemed like a cup a day. FOR WEEKS. My body swelled so I could not turn my head or bend my knees.

Hair Loss. Blurry Vision. Loss of Smell. Ants crawled under my skin and nerve zingers jolted my limbs.

I suffered greatly because I used over the counter hydrocortisone, for a few winter seasons, to treat mild eczema and dry skin that could have been fixed by eliminating inflammatory foods.

But my health problems didn’t really begin until my father’s ex-wife gave me her prescription strength steroid ointment, because she noticed I had a skin blemish. She was tough on my appearance.

The ointment smelled like engine lube and I put it on my face.

IF YOU OR ANYONE YOU KNOW USES TOPICAL STEROIDS *LIKE OVER THE COUNTER HYDROCORTISONE* OR PRESCRIPTION STRENGTH TOPICAL AND ORAL STEROIDS, PLEASE STOP NOW! YOU ARE POISONING YOUR BODY.  

Also, if you are suffering from a chronic illness please consider a plant based diet, it is helping me heal and detox! I bought a juicer, it’s amazing.

I am living my life again and hope to be fully healed after a year. Right now I am going on eight months.

This is just one more lesson on how to crawl through the fucking fire!

Thank you Wangie and Willy for support. Fuck my family.

That’s ALL!

 

 

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